My heart has been aching.

For so long now I have been asking myself, what words can I possibly bring forward here that might invite any sense of ease to our community during this time in the state of the world we are living in and witnessing right now?

There has been so much suffering around the world with very little room for a collective exhale. Can words even offer a softer landing space for us during the continued war-torn destruction and polarization plaguing our collective humanity? I write this from a place of deep self reflection. From a place of more questions than answers.  From a place of universal and self compassion. And yet, this reflection is still blurry. I am trying to find a balance between these practices of agency and nurturing community as I prepare for our weekend retreat in Portugal, and self evaluation as I ask myself what is my role in the grieving and healing process of the current global situations. Right now I have come to the conclusion I have no words.  

I have the knowledge as a trauma professional that humans instinctually route to safety as trauma impacts us individually and from varying perspectives.And when we are in trauma responses anything that feels unfamiliar or “un-like” ourselves can feel threatening. With this knowledge my intention is to continue to offer my mission of being on this journey with you as we find practices to sit with strong emotions tied to current events, discharge trauma residue and patterns that are no longer serving you, and reroute new pathways of safety that include differing perspectives and experiences from your fellow humans. The path out is not division, but interconnectedness. This is powerful and “long game” work.  And I am here for it alongside you.  

As I sit with the emotional and physical discomfort of feeling fear, anxiety, dread, and hopelessness, I also hold in my own body the possibility of shift and hope; resilience.  And while this might not seem like much of an action (because I know I want to and feel like I should be doing so much more), it is my resilience I have to offer at this time. May we all continue to discover connection through this work together and places where we can allow the grief/healing cycle to be supported.  

I am here with you.